So I sat at breakfast with nothing, no card, no chocolates, no present. Marianne, my wife and business partner was in Scotland yesterday and overnited but she did not forget. She never forgets things.
She presented me with a little Valentine's card just like those from elementary school days when we all exchanged cards in the class. Everyone got 34 cards. Wow!
And, the icing on the cake, Marianne also gave me a wonderful men's perfume. At this point I was overcome with GUILT! I had nothing to give Marianne. I felt stupid and definitely looked around in my sweaty brain for an excuse or something or someone to blame this forgetfulness on. But I didn't find anything to hide behind or to blame or feel depressed about. Thank God. It took a little work. However, I managed to accept it as my responsibility and that we forget sometimes.
This was a Victory for me. Old behaviours and beliefs were trying hard to get me to play that old game. Blame and shame, guilty feelings, I am not good enough as I forgot to do something I would have liked to. Remember to do something cool for Marianne. I have the oppotunity to do something nice and loving another day, and as many times as I want, for the rest of my life. That is a very nice thing.
Have a lovely evening and we will talk soon.
Be concious, live long and smile. Bob